Hi, I'm relatively new to this whole thing but I have a big problem and was hoping from some outside advice. I'm with the absolute love of my life right now. He's sweet, caring, giving...everything a girl could ask for. We've been together for two years. Lately Ive been having a terrible attitude issue. Its actually been going on for a while and we've had a break up because of it. Things cooled down and we're back together, but its very obvious that I'm not better, and my constant nagging, starting stupid fights, and being negative is taking a terrible tole on our relationship. I often times find myself bringing up issues we've had in the past, like him breaking up with me, and although we realized we want to be together, I'm still holding a grudge. Not to mention, while broken up, he kissed another girl. That hit me pretty hard, and I just cant seem to move past it despite the fact that he literally beats himself up over it because he feels so terrible that he hurt me. He's getting sick of the fighting and I cant blame him. I dont know why I keep starting petty fights and acting this way. I'm miserable without him, and if we do break up, I only have myself to blame. I love him with all my heart, and I DO NOT want to mess this up. Why can't I control these behaviors and emotions!?!?! I've gone through a lot of hard times, losing my mother to cancer when I was 17, and my brother to a boating accident a year and a half later (I am now almost 20).