I am losing it over these dreams and need help! I have what I call a dream within a dream. It starts out as a nightmare that always has to do with Evil - something horribly oozing with evil is trying to get me while I'm in some strange house alone. (the house is never the same) I jolt awake up sweating, heart racing etc and sit up in bed. I reach to turn on my light and the light won't come on. I sit there perplexed and then the walls start shaking and the Evil is now there in my room. I panic realizing that I am not awake and the dream is still continuing. I panic and wake up and sit up in my bed and then I reach for the light....it won't turn on. I know when the light doesn't come on, I am still dreaming and I panic - then wake up again. I go through this pattern over and over. When the light finally comes on during one of these times, I realize that I am totally awake - panicked, heart racing and not able to sleep for hours. My boyfriend actually tries to help me wake up during these events - I will startle him awake as I am reaching for the light. He will reassure that I am awake now and the light will come on.
So I researched this and read about lucid dreaming and taking control of your dreams. OMG it got worse, and now I am terrified to sleep...
So I had one of those dreams two nights ago. In a house - evil there and coming for me. So I thought to myself, oh god - here we go again and made a decision take control. I pretended it was a video game and I was a heroin and started being all bad assed and destroying anything scary. It was actually fun and I thought it was the coolest experiences of my life to be able to control the outcome of the dream.
Something woke me and I rolled over in my bed and thought how I wanted to go back to sleep and finish the dream and someone was standing next to my bed. He leaned into me and pinned me down in the bed. He leaned down and got 2 inches from my face, slowly looked over at my sleeping boyfriend and then back at me and said. "You think it's that easy?" I panicked and started fighting and screaming and my boyfriend woke up and started rolling over. The man backed off and said, "This ain't over" and disappeared. I sat up in bed, all the while my boyfriend is reassuring me by telling me to turn on the light that I will wake up. The light came on, and I started crying. My boyfriend said, "Trish it's ok, your awake now." I looked at him and said, "I wasn't asleep."
I am afraid to go to bed. I am a professional and don't take any medications. I don't know what to do.