Hey girls,
i had wrote kelly a letter and asked her sister to print it out and give it to her. So laura did. Then kelly wrote me back and laura emailed it to me! I wanted to share it with you all.
Love,
chanda
i read this letter and


my dearest girls, hi, how are you all doing? I pray that you all aren't as worried about me as laura says. I am sorry about everything, I have just been so anti-social and I don't feel like talking, I hope that you all understand, as I am sure you do because each and every one of you has a heart so deep with compassion that I would drown in it if I tried to find the bottom.Things have been a little rough the last few days. As I know laura has told you all about us losing the baby, it was the last thing that I ever wanted to have happen. I feel so guilty, I cannot begin to explain how much of a failure I feel like. I am so blessed that ryan is still here with me, and though my mom has been so weak she has hardly left my side. Chanda, I cannot begin to express to you how much your letter meant to me, as I sat there and read it I couldn't help but feel so responsible for putting all of you and your children at such high risk with all of this stress. I am truly sorry to all of you. Danielle, I have read that poem over and over and over. I do not know how you knew what I was feeling or how to put it into words, but you did, and for that I am sure that everyone knows how hard the mental struggle is. I know that all of you girls are so worried but please don't I am fine. When I woke up in that hospital I felt so empty, something more than my morning sickness was gone, I had lost a piece of me, and you girls did not hesitate to fill that loss with love and support. Thank you. Please do not worry about me, I have everything I need, it lives in chistina, and though I will never be able to have another child, I am thankful to have the purest untimely blessing, I have in front of me. Love you always, kelly