Hi. This is my first post. I'm an 18 year old guy, and like most other 18 year old guys, have a girlfriend. However, we are so much closer than a teenage relationship. We had plans of moving out together, starting a family and growing old together. Our relationship was that of soul mates who met early on, not of two teenagers at school.

I have a problem, though. I cannot stop cheating. At first, it was cheating and lying. I started seeing a counsellor earlier in the year and he's helped with the lying. I used to be a compulsive liar, but it's really so much better nowadays. That was a psychological problem. When I cheat, nothing goes through my mind - no red lights, no alarm bells. Why don't I think about what I stand to lose? Afterwards, I regret it - sometimes to the brink of suicide. I hate myself and want to change. I love this girl. She loves me. We split up the other day because of my cheating. We had been together for just under a year and three months. It's broken both of us, but I still want to be the person she needs, even if she doesn't want me back.

Sorry this was so long. Thanks for reading. Someone please, please help. I don't want to live my life like the wrecking ball I have been for the last year.