This weekend my dh and i took his daughter to the zoo and it was fun i guess because I got get out of the house. It got hard at the end though when we had to come back home...Let me explain why. There was so many babies around and preggy ladies that it almost made me start crying right there and then . I couldnt believe myself . How can just seen them preggo affect me that way...I think this is affecting me more than i thought. My sister asked me some thing that made me think about many things..."Why do you want a baby RIGHT NOW? Why does it have to be right now??" And it took me a while to answer her because the reason i want a baby is because i want to be a mom of course we all know that, but what made me think is why right now? I think is because my dh wants one, I want to be a mom so much but I dont want to be stressed about it and i defenetly dont want to want to start crying when i see a baby or a pregnant lady, I still got so much to do that i guess the idea of getting prego is going fade away (at least for a while). Just the fact that is not happening makes me feel worse so what my dh and i decided is to just go with flow and we are not going to to anything to prevent it. We are just going to "do it" and have fun. Maybe it will take the stress away and if it happens GREEAT!!! BUT if it doesnt happen soon, well i am just going to have to be here congratulating the bfp ladies and of course giving support to those ttc. Super dupper baby dust to all of us and may God do his wonderful thing he does. Keeping the faith is going to be my biggest focus.