i'm sorry to hear you don't get to see your husband much. that must be difficult and put a lot of pressure on you.

as for the weed, it's all about context, really. i have always viewed it as something social, or something you'd smoke at the end of a day to help yourself unwind. and this shouldn't be a problem. however if you're getting up in the morning and the first thing you do is smoke weed, it can't be very good for you psychologically!

i suppose 'everything in moderation' is the key. you have to ensure you aren't becoming dependent on it. my boyfriend smokes a lot of weed, for example, but he's given it up for lent many times, and if he hasnt the money to afford it, then he doesn't smoke it. there is no element of addiction whatsoever.

just keep your head screwed on, enjoy a bit of a smoke now and again, but don't forget that there are other ways to help yourself relax! things such as swimming, when you have the time, could be therapeutic. have a friend or friends over every few evenings. just don't make weed the be-all-and-end-all, and you should be fine.

i guess what you should be more worried about isn't the weed, but the problems you are having which made you feel you needed it to relax. can you cope raising your son alone 3/4 of the time? maybe you could use some more help from relatives or a nanny. maybe even having more phone contact with your husband could make you feel better or less lonely. just some ideas...

Ok, first of all, weed is the fastest solution to depression but it's not permanent. So if you have plans of really taking good care of your son and have a great time in doing it, I STRONGLY suggest that you stop smoking weed before you get addicted. I hope it's not too late. Weed is the hardest drug to let go according to many drug users. I think because it is not really that dangerous to your health unlike other drugs so you wont really want to quit it. I ended up in this website beacause i can't stop smoking pot. I've been trying for about a year now, and guess what, no success.
I think it's ok every once in a while. But the most important thing is moderation. It's only gonna be a problem if you get into it too deep. Weed is highly addictive and since it's cheap and easily accessible, you can get hooked to it easily. And realizing that you can no longer function without weed can come very late. You maybe happy right now but eventually, the effects can be opposite. I think you should only use it if youre really really depressed. And please remember that craving for weed can sometimes make you feel really depressed, even if you don't have problems. so contol yourself. It's not easy to resist specially if it's just beside you waiting to get rolled and smoked. but it's better than not being able to quit. Believe me. Controlling yourself is the best thing you can do. And also make sure to do something about your problem cause weed can only make you forget your problems. You don't want to smoke weed for the rest of your life, dont you?
Your son could even end up smoking weed at an early age. I'm sure you don't want that.