Why in the hell did they diagnose you as paranoid schizophrenic? That doesn't even make any sense, what an idiot. Paranoid schizophrenics don't think about suicide really, they think about how the government, aliens, demons and such are following them and see shadowy figures, demons and other oddities walking around, talking to them and so forth. That's paranoid schizophrenia, not just being depressed. You shouldn't stop taking any medication like that because your body basically goes into withdrawal which sounds like what it did. It seems you need a good anti-depressant and might do well to supplement with some natural remedies to keep the chemical levels in check.