Hello Amanda. Many people deal with difficulties somewhere in their lives. Some people get more than others. From what I can see, there is nothing wrong with you. It seems like you just need to vent and talk to someone about what's going on in your life. Do you have a best friend that you share things with?

Life is a beautiful thing. It has sad parts but the good make it worth it. Try to focus on all the good things that you have and everything that makes you smile rather on what you don't have. I'm sure there are things that could make your life so much worse. You just need to appreciate things. Appreciate your vision, hearing, the fact that you can walk, your home, and your family. If you need to talk about something, feel free to private message me. I'll listen to anything you have to say.

Life is going to get hard, the older you get. You need to find something that makes you want to get up in the morning. Write poetry, or just write in a journal. Talk to your teachers, or your school's guidance counselor. We all go through ups and downs in our life. Take each thing as it comes, don't let anything overwhelm you. Things will get better if you let it and don't dwell on the negative stuff. You are a good and king and decent human being, and a lot of people love you. Don't give up. If you need to talk, just send me a private message if you want. Take care.