I'm so sorry you're having a rough time! It really stinks that your hubby isn't there, do you have other help around?
My boyfriend is in school a lot and then has been working to pay our bills so he's not here much except in the evenings however I'm very lucky to have a ton of help from my mom. Its not easy but without her I definately wouldn't manage. She babysits and such when I'm in classes and its been tremendous. I'm so thankful for her. But anyways overall taking care of him hasn't been to difficult for me. He's got his days and nights slightly turned around but not too bad, he still sleeps at night, he just sleeps longer and more sound during the day.
O and he's getting soo big! At his two week checkup he had gained 12 ounces in a week!

So now he's 7 lbs 14 oz, four more ounces then when he was born. I can't wait to go to his next check up in a week and see how much more he's grown. Its crazy how hes changing!
And I live in good ol' Kansas, so if you're ever in my neck of the woods (haha.) bring the lil' guy by.