Cutting Myself Cause Life Is Hard. Posted: 03-04-07 00:55am
I'm a 19 year old. I'm having a really bad
couple of months. In November my fiance
and I broke up after beening together for
almost 4 years. Then my fiance started to
date my best friend. That's when the
cutting started up again. Then we got back
together. And broke up again. Then I found
out that I was pregnant. We were happy
some what. I lost the baby at 3 in a half
weeks. From there it was just cutting. We
are working things out and thats great and
all. But I cut myself all the time. He
wants me to promise he that I won't cut
myself anymore. I want to be able to
promise he that but I don't want to lie to
he. I go to a consuler but that only helps
at that time. I was on anit-depression
meds but I stopped them cause I hated the
way I felt. Thats the only way that I know
how to deal with my problems. I have a
problem with not beening able to talk
about my feels, so I keep them bottled up
till I can't take it anymore.
I am the same way you are, i feel like
there is no one i can talk to at times
too, even my husband. i do talk more to my
one friend i have here, rather then get
upset and cut, my husband has threatened
divorce if i cut wich ive done twice in
germany and we are still together, so that
didnt go to far. I would suggest trying
different kinds of anti depressants,
luckily the first one i was put on worked
for me, my brother has panic attacks and
depression, it took a long time to find
amed that worked without nasty side
effects, but now he has one that he is on
and it works just fine, so it may take a
while to find the right med for you. its
good to knowyour seekin counseling, your
bf or fiance whatever he is now lol . he
should be more supportive and caring and
needs to really understand abotu the
cutting most people do not understand the
mental part we go through when we cut etc.
so id talk with him so he can better
understand it and help you alot more.
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san54
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 28 Dec 2003 Posts: 227 Location: Virginia
Re:cutting Myself Posted: 03-04-07 08:19am
Please go back to the doctor and get
another medication. You cannot just stop
taking medications like that, especially
they way you are feeling. You are young
yet, and life may get a lot harder, you
need to learn how to cope with the ups and
downs of life. Please seek help now before
it is too late. I am 58 and I have been to
hell and back, and I am still here. I'vw
had an abortion(which I am not proud of),
a miscarriage, my husband and I were
homeless for a time(thank GOD our kids
were off to college). I found out in 2000
that I have MS(and a slue of other medical
problems). I even had PTSD for about a
year, was on anti-depressants and
counseling for a year. I am hanging in
there with the help of friends, family and
my FAITH. Please listen to your boyfriend.
Take care and I will be thinking of you.
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v00d00cita
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Re: Cutting Myself Cause Life Is Hard. Posted: 03-07-07 09:40am
Hi. Welcome to this forum. It's positive
that you've came here and shared your
problems. Don't you feel that this is
helpful for you?
Relationships often have those bad
aspects. Me and my boyfriend, for example,
broke up last week, after about 3 years.
I'm sure you can understand that as well
as I can understand what you told us.
Losing a baby is a very painful situation,
but you must understand that you still
have the gift of giving life.
You don't need to cut yourself, because
you can make things works without doing
that. Making amends, making ends meet,
whatever. You can do it, one step at a
time.
Talking and getting a hobby are good
things you should consider doing.
Cheers!
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yummyasia
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 12 Mar 2007 Posts: 2 Location: Anaheim, CA
Re: Posted: 03-12-07 21:42pm
Hi My name is Michelle and I am a
recovering Cutter. I was cutting very
heavy for about 6 years. Hospitalized
every freaking week. Lost friends, jobs a
family memeber ( Father) and all other
things that meant the world to me. I just
don't want people who cut to give up. I
am not even going to say not to cut,
because hey, it feels so good. I still
get the chills thinking about it.
especially when I go thru a bad something.
My Dx is Borderline and I still see a Dr
and therapit on a regular basis. It's
hard and it feels really lonely, I know it
all and still go thru it. I really dont
know what I can tell people here to think
there is hope left. Because I know you
feel like there isnt any. I want you to
all give yourself a break and have a
moment when you don't try so hard. It's
ok to fail and try again. You don't have
to please everyone. You don't have to be
happy all the time. Just give yourself a
break. Thats what I did. I took break
from school. I told myself it was okay
not to live up to other people's
expectations.
I have 100s of scars and marks from
stitches. Every one of them reminds me of
each episode, which was like every day. I
still get the urge to cut myself and
smear blood all over myself. And I know
some people who happen to be reading this
are thinking of doing this. It's okay.
Just one step at a time. And you may take
a step back sometimes. It's okay too.
Just remember you have not lost
everything. You have you. LOVE to all
who's struggling with Cutting.
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v00d00cita
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Re: Posted: 03-13-07 05:05am
Hello, Michelle. Thanks for coming here
and tell your story.
It's so important you've came here and
told us your opinion, it's so grateful to
hear someone who has already gone through
one of these situations sharing their
thoughts.
You're so right when you affirm that we
can't please everyone. We are people, we
are human beings, so, let's live one day
at a time. Everyone can recover, I know
that.
yummyasia
wrote:
I have 100s of scars and
marks from stitches. Every one of them
reminds me of each episode, which was like
every day. I still get the urge to cut
myself and smear blood all over myself.
And I know some people who happen to be
reading this are thinking of doing this.
It's okay. Just one step at a time. And
you may take a step back sometimes. It's
okay too. Just remember you have not lost
everything. You have you. LOVE to all
who's struggling with
Cutting.
Good luck to you all, share your thoughts,
ideas, feelings.
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