Sounds like obsessions are starting to sink in. Have you ever been tested for any physical problems or did they just start chucking out the pills? Any physical symptoms?

well ive always had dizziness, shortness of breath, burning feeling over my whole body, light headness... umm sweating,,, a fear of this over whelming terror..."out of reality".... and now i have this... i cant go anywhere.. i dont work im 18 years old and just sit in my apt all day cos im to afraid to even go outside.. i freak out to even order pizza and have it delieverd and when it gets here i cant even eat the pizza cos im scared they poisioned it or put pills it in... i feel so ashamed

I have what is called Pure O. It is a form of anxiety dissorder that is kinda between panic dissorder and OCD. You have the Obsessions without compulsions and panic as a result. Sounds to me like you have irrational obsessions with panic as a result. I take Xanax for the anxiety and it helps a lot. I also meditate daily and quit drinking, smoking, and alcohol. That helped a lot. Anyway, just wanted to chime in and say you are not alone,

Take care,
OE

Oh wow, yeah it seems like you have a physical problem at the root of this. My guess, as usual, is a blood sugar disorder and it sounds like hypoglycemia based on those symptoms. Notice any changes depending on what you eat, when you eat or whatever?

I took the Blood Glucose Level test myself by buying a glucose meter and checking on my blokd sugar. I was borderline hypglycemic a couple times, but never really bad. I do notice a major change in my mood based on food in my stomach though. Mornings are usually the worst, but not always. I find no consistency in the anxiety level versus blood glucose level. I have no doubt that hypoglycemia plays a part, but I don't think it is the root cause of my anxiety. I am pretty sure that I have a genetic anxiety dissorder that was passed down through my mothers side of the family. Eating better does help, but doesn't solve the problem. Meditation, quit drinking, smoking, caffeine. All that helps a lot as well, but at the end of the day I need the Xanax to get by.

Later,
OE

Wow, that seems like an early age to be diagnosed with panic disorder. I would think anxiety and panic are pretty normal in the teen years. I know I sure had a lot of it. Maybe I should have seen a doctor for it. Now that I look back.. it does seem I was a bit sensitive and anxious compared to the rest of the crowd.

I wasn't really "diagnosed". I just remember a time when I had a rough patch in my life and had lots of anxiety symptoms from panic attacks to though intrusions when I was young. I was very scared of being away from my family because I thought that I wouldn't be there to save them or help them if they needed me etc. It caused me great anxiety and I missed a lot of school those couple years as a result. Then in my early twenties it all came back like a flood. I have Pure O which is a type of anxiety dissorder. I think to much about everything that pops into my head and as a result end up in panic due to nothing. It is rough, but with meds and a better lifestyle I am much better.

Later,
OE