I am 24 years old & started losing weight about year ago. I was doing it healthy at first, I managed to lose 55 pounds on my own, with healthy diet & exercise. I went from 185 down to 130. I'm 5'6.
But I really started to obsess on gaining back my weight... and I started to become bulimic. I was purging every now and then at first when I felt I had eaten too much, or had eaten something not healthy. It's become more frequent now... I'll do it up to 3x's a day... sometimes I'll be able to skip a day or two & try to stop, but then the next day I'm back to doing it. And the thing is, I don't eat alot at all!!! I only eat dinner and my dinners are usually really healthy, vegetables, salads, boneless chicken, and even if I eat something totally healthy, I might still purge. And if I do allow myself, say one cookie. When all I had all day was a veggie burger on wheat bread for dinner... then I will still feel guilty and end up purging....it's just this cycle.....
This has been going on for 6-8 months now.... and I know it's already wreaking havoc on my body. Sometimes I'll get sores inside my mouth, and I have to use mouthwash. And my one tooth has been killing me & I made a dentist appointment I'm sure it's a cavity... and my hair is very brittle and dry..... I know this is the effects of the bulimia. But I think it could also be, because I am only eating one meal a day... so I'm having double vitamin deficiency. Even though I try to take supplements...
I need to STOP this... I need to OVERCOME this...but I don't know how. I'm so obsessed. I weigh myself twice a day. In the beginning I was working out 5 times a week. Now I've tried to cut back by working out 2 times a week, but I still run 4 miles a week. I'm now 127 pounds... I've lost 58 pounds... I would like to get back up to 130, or at least stay at 127 and be healthy about it! And not do this anymore....
I just want to talk to people that are also dealing with this problem, or have overcome this problem... I want to get past this and be healthy about staying in shape..... and not worry about every little thing I put into my body, or panicking on it's effects. Thank you...