It's a good idea to take care of yourself first. This baby business really does consume your entire being. It is driving me up the wall. Even if I do get pregnant, I will then start worrying about m/c. This is crazy. In my wildest dreams I never thought I would go through something like this. My health isn't so great and I don't know exaclly what to do. At 35, I don't know if it's best to wait or not. I am also afraid if I do wait, my health will get even worst and I would have lost my only chance to have an angel. But then again, if I do have a baby and my health does get worst, then it's not fair to my child either. Augh... just going out of my mind. Star, the procedure you had done is due to an abnormal pap smear?

Yes it was due to an abnormal pap. What I have learned is that it can stay dormant for a while and then become active again??? i think? I have had two done when I was 18 and 20 and both times it came back ok afterwards. I have no idea what would cause the cells to become abnormal all of the sudden.

What kind of health problems are you going through if you don't mind me asking?

Best of luck to you.

I have hashimoto thiroiditis. It's an auto immune thing. my thyroid is being attacked by my own antibodies. It's still functioning in normal range. I have lots of muscle spasm and tension in my legs and don't quite know the cause of it yet. I keep hoping it's just the hashimoto thing. Then the m/c's I had and oh boy...
I was married with my previous husband for 3 years and we were together for a total of 7 years. We were so in love, but it was a wrong decision to marry him. I couldn't imagin my life without him, yet was afraid to have children with him. He had emotional problems and never wanted the same things as I did. We wanted different things and he kept telling me that he only lived for me and that was too much pressure for me. I got sick physically and emotionaly from always taking care of him. There were days where he wanted to become a monk or commit suecite. Anyways, I seperated from him (that nearly killed me)and I think it is still killing me inside. I got married a year later to an old friend of mine. I love my husband and really want a family and a normal life. Wow...I said so much...I guess I needed to do that. I think I need therapy, but just cant afford it. I have kept soooo much inside (its insane)

Wow, Star and Negar,

It sounds like you're going through a lot. I hope that everything gets better. You are in my prayers!

star and negar,

Girls, you two are going through so much . I am so sorry & hope everything turns out good for you two. HUGS , Good luck