Ok, so I really need help recovering. I don't want to live my entire life this way, I need to find a way out before I get trapped. Although, I feel already trapped so I really need help and support!!! I binge and purge almost every day anywhere from 2-5 times a day. My hearts beats are definitely NOT normal, I feel dizzy and weak all the time, and my period is gone. I'm scared for my health, I heard about a girl who had a heart attack and died after being bulemic for only 5months. I'm only 17, I can't keep killing myself!!

I was on the sort of anorexic for about 2 years and I got down to 80lbs, at 5'2. I was constantly thinking about food, counting calories, fat, etc. I allowed 1,200cals a day and I NEVER went above that, and i worked out for three hours almost everyday. But then when people saw how skinny I was everyone was trying to make me gain weight. They basically force fed me. I'm now 105lbs at 5'5. Ever since people started forcing me to eat, I got in the habit of bingeing and it turned into bulimia. Now my issues are way more intense, bulimia is taking over my life!

I'm hoping someone can help me get healthy again. Maybe a meal plan?? My body needs so many things right now, potassium, magnesium, etc. does anyone know what I should eat to get my body healthy again? I think that if i start eating balanced and allow myself to have some treats now and then, it will help me to stop binging and purging. please help i dont know where to start!!