I'm new here.. however, not new to bulimia. I've been sick now for about 7 years... and I am SOOOOOOOOO done with it!!!
So, I'm a senior in college, and I have two quarters left before I graduate. I sit here in my bed, skipping class because I no longer have the motivation to walk to the bus and go to school. What's wrong with me????
It's not just that... my work out routine used to consist of going to the gym 4-5 days a week, which has took a turn for the worse-- I now go *maybe* 2-3 times a week, pretty much just to stare at the machines and leave.
Oh.. and this one is HUGE. I'm dating the guy of my dreams.. but I seem to be pushing him away lately due to my irritability level (it's out of freakin' control!!). He knows about my e.d., and clearly wants to help me. When we talk about it I get upset and tell him to leave me alone. I really do want to get better.. and I feel so bad for the way I've been treating him lately. He's the best thing that has ever happened to me, yet I keep pushing him away whenever we are together! AHHH! I try to keep motivated and think positively, but it's so hard when all my nutrients have gone down the drain (literally!).
Does anyone seem to lack motivation and are as highly irritable as I am?