Searching For a Piece of Mind.... Posted: 02-24-07 18:21pm
Am I depressed?... Or is this just brain
damage from drinking alchohol, drug
expermentation and being alone without
anyone to talk to for abou two years?
I think about my past
constantly...Sometimes I'll replay, or
reinvent experiences...I put myself down
all the time...Other times I believe Im
above others and I understand more about
life and humanity, because I always ponder
and ponder what I wonder...I know I'm
pathetic...Ive read a lot, but its not
enough!...there is so much to Learn. So
much to put together...and so many
ignorant people (me included) with their
own beliefs and assumptions,
it drives me insane. I would love to know
what people think, or it would be best if
people said exactly what they thought
(imagine that...chaos)...Tell me this why
do people play games...Isnt that a waste
of time? I have no friends and the
friends(well, friend) that do call me...I
really dont know why?? I don't go with
the so called flow of life...I struggle
with trying to think of everything
(lol)...My life is ironic!!!
Anyways, I didn't and still do not, feel
up to the task of explainning everything,
so I wrote that mess on top...I welcome
any assumptions, personal stories and
advice...something that I can use to help
myself and in turn others...Thank you.
Oh, and I started school again, Im doing
well...But its so much different then it
used to be- I used to be extroverted now
Im introverted....I used to be able to
writ without much thought...Now in english
class I need to really put an effort
in...Thanks
^ that is a post that I posted on
depression...maybe it will help with
whatever.
What I really want to know is how do I get
to my potential of brilliance...I need
replies for exercises, nutrition ....I
need a science that will get me as close
to...genius as possible...or just write
anything....
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dudovic
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 17 Feb 2007 Posts: 26 Location: Delray Beach, FL US
Posted: 02-24-07 20:26pm
Hello AbsentMinded20,
I hear your pain, and I understand you
quest for answers, I have been there.
Drug use can damage you brain, will
isolate you from you family and friends,
will get you depressed and eventually if
you don't stop can kill you or at least
keep you feeling miserable and confused.
I know it sounds a little harsh but it is
the truth and it needs to be said.
Do you think you are addicted to drugs ?
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AbsentMinded20
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 13 Feb 2007 Posts: 24 Location: Canada
True Posted: 02-24-07 22:59pm
I think I get addicted to anything that
makes me feel good or different...The
easiest substance to get was alchohol,
coffee(lots), and cigarettes.
The hardest drugs I experimented with were
cocaine and ecstasy...and I did those
about three times each, small amounts, and
within a 2 year period.
Ive stollen tylenol 3's from my grandma
and took those.
I haven't drank or done anything since
last year...all I want to do now is stay
sober and educate my fragil brain into a
strong minded, brilliant phd type...
I want to know everything I can do now in
order to repair the damage, get back to
normal better then ever....is that too
much to ask?
