I'm sorry for not telling you this in the first place but I wanted to get to know you first and for you to get to know me.

After I had my twins I literally had no help with the kids. I wasent with their dad (til later) my mom moved with her boyfriend and got a job and I had no one else. I was going down hill pretty fast, I didnt eat sleep or take a shower cause I never had time. I got very depressed and I even had suicidel thoughts. By the time my family relized it I was in pretty bad shape. I took care of my kids but the way that things were going I knew I couldn't much longer. My grandma offered to take my twins while I got on some medicine to help me.So I agreed. I got on some medicine to help me with my depression and got my own apartment so I would have more room for the kids. I ended up staying with my grandma cause the babies were so comfortable there and I wanted to be close to them, but I kept my own place too. After I got together with jesse and things started looking up for me I wanted the kids back with me full time but my grandma was extremly attached to them so we decided to share them. She says they light up her life! well thats why I tell you ladies sometimes that my grandma helps me alot. I just didn't want to tell you right away cause I didnt want anyone to think i'm a bad mom cause i'm a really great mommy. And i'm glad I made that decicsion cause who knows what could of happened if I never accepted help from her.