Prolouge:
i mean what i'm I supposed to be doing with life? People say to enjoy it, well I do do that but not enough, I feel scared of doing that I guess shy, or too lazy. Lack of motivation, I feel alone in this conquest of life. And since I feel alone I don't feel the need to do certian things.
I see right now, a lonely future, to keep my threads consistant in how i've been feeling right now.
Question 1:
i'm also kinda astranged by the choice of college to go to, I havn't made up my mind of what I want to do or where I want to go, i'm a junior in highschool btw.
Question 2:
i've also noticed it's hard for me to read a book, play guitar, play with electronics kit, mecco set. It always ends up with me playing witht he computer instead. I don't worry about working out though I force myself too, because I understand what i'm doing might change things little bit for me.
Question 3:
why do I feel this feeling of being a less equal around people like with some people I feel being looked down at, because lack of gf, lack of sports, lack of social life. I hate that feeling.
Question 4:
i've got a deadly lack of desire. And strong apeasement, meaning i'm someitmes defeated before I start.
I only hope that your answers don't help me but for the many that google for the same answers..