Okay. I made a really big boo-boo by overlooking a water bill. I got the situation straightened out with no shut-offs or anything like that. I simply had to put a rush on the check. Now however my boss is coming up here to visit me on thursday and friday of this week and I can't help but wonder if i'm going to get the axe. Other than the fact that i'd be in a whole heap of trouble in my living situation and that it would embarass the heck out of me, I don't think that I would really care too much. I'm soooo upset though that they would do something like that because I overlooked one water bill. I mean i've freaking dedicated my d@mn life to making sure everything goes smoothly at my site. I don't like being checked up on so I do my work so that no one has to check up on me. If this is a check up visit then i'm pissed. I forgot one bill. I caught it in time. What about the other 375 bills that I processed last month that were on time? If she's coming up to fire me then i'm going to be even more pissed. I have no, and I mean no disciplinary actions against me. I've never had to be reprimanded for anything. Why is she coming to bother me? Let me work and don't visit, I don't want to develop ulcers. Now this other thing with dh, I think he might have snuck a peak at my emails yesterday and saw some things that he shouldn't have seen because he was trying to be super, super nice to me. He didn't even go to the gym yesterday and let me take a quick jog after work like I used to. I'm pleased with that little bit of progress but not enough to stay with him. I'm still looking for jobs, still looking for houses. So if you guys hear of anything keep me posted. I now officially have no idea where I want to move to.


*ps, if my life keeps up this way, i'm going to have to be hospitalized for depression*