You need to talk to you doctor and try to get off of these mood altering chemicals. Try psychologists, social workers, church leaders and in Germany they prescribe St.John's Wort; try it, it takes about 3 months to get it into your system so that you can tell if it is working. I helped me.
Have you ever heard of Oprah Winfrey? She has mega $. She hires people to research for her. Her findings recently were 3:
1. Read labels on all food products which are processed. If "partially hydrogenated oil" of any kind (vegetable, soy, cotton seed, corn) are in it as an ingredient, don't eat it.
2. Read food labels again. If "sugar or fructose or corn syrup" is higher than the 4th ingredient down the label, do not put it in you mouth
3. Walk. Get yourself a pedometer, one that will count steps. Wear it 3 or 4 days. Walk normal. Write down the total steps each day; then, after 3 or 4 days average it out and see how many steps you took per day on the average. Now, add 100 steps per day to this total until You come as close to 10,000 per day as you can get...if 7500 is as close as you can get the so be it. Walking in the cheapest, easiest to do, most proficient form of exercise available. Park in the fartherest spot away from the store and still be in the same parking lot and walk. Take the stairs, even if you work or school in a multi story building at least walk to the 2nd floor to catch the elevator. At the mall, take the stairs not the esculator. The weight will come off.
She probably has spent over a half million of her own money to find this out. She is most likely correct. Hang in there!