I've been reading through many of the
topics written before mine, and I see many
of you are happy to help, so perhaps i'm
able to get advice from you guys, better
than I have from my so-called
friends....
Ok, i'm a twenty year old female, close to
twenty-one. I've been diagnosed with a
few things, some I can understand, while
others completely elude me. I've been
told by many a doctor that i'm bi-polar,
and I can understand that it has to do
with my mood swings, but other than that,
I have no clue. I refused at the time to
be put on any medicine, but now i'm
thinking maybe it would have been easier
to just take it.
A little background information, and
perhaps the reason I was diagnosed as
this. I've always been suicidal after a
few things I won't get into, but that I
deem as my fault. My parents never knew
about these things, other than the fact I
was always trying to end my life, so they
took me to a phyciatrist (sp?) that told
me I was bi-polar, and I had to many
problems for her to help me. My mom, not
believing the bi-polar part took me to
several other doctors, and the diagnosed
me as the same... >.< though i'm
still not sure how they figured it out.
Now that we've gotten that out of the way,
back to the topic. I quit cutting, close
to a year ago, and for that, i'm really
proud of myself. I've recently found a
guy that I like, and i've gotten even more
depressed than I was before I stopped
cutting. I'm happy when he's around, but
when he's gone, i've just started crying,
and things. I'm scared that even though I
haven't cut in a year now, that it might
start again. And i'm not sure if this
has anything with me being bi-polar, or if
i'm just screwed up. If theres anyone
that can offer advice, please do so. I'm
not sure exactly what i'm asking for, I
just need help, but I don't want to take
the medicine.
♥chelle♥
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san54
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 28 Dec 2003 Posts: 227 Location: Virginia
Welcome Darkangel Posted: 02-08-07 14:18pm
I really don't know anything about
bi-polar, but I can tell you that everyone
gets depressed sometime in their life.
Maybe it wouldn't hurt to go on some meds
to see if they would help you. I promise,
you won't get hooked. As long as you are
being monitored by a doctor and go to
therapy things will change for you, if you
let them. I am glad that you are not
cutting. I know this may sound stupid,
but if you write things down in a journal
or write poetry, it helps to get your
feelings out also. Please don't give up,
and know that people do care and want to
help you. Take care.
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DarkAngel86
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 08 Feb 2007 Posts: 5
Posted: 02-08-07 23:15pm
I appreciate the support, and your advice
didn't sound stupid >.< I actually
write poetry, and post it on my xanga
site. I talked to my sister, and just
found out that her hubby is bi-polar, and
she said it would be best for me to go to
the doctor and get on it. Now I just have
to figure out when to go, because I know
the sooner the better, but i'm sorely
pressed for time. Thank you for the
advice san ^.^
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Rhi
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 30 Jan 2007 Posts: 4
Posted: 02-09-07 14:52pm
I'm not much older than you at all, but I
can say this. Relationships are hard -
and being in a relationship has always
seemed to amplify all of my problems. I
can't speak so much for you, but I know
that I am a fragile person with
co-dependent tendencies. I am in a great
relationship with a very loving guy who
treats me wonderfully despite my many
faults, and I can tell you that I hurt
when he isnt around. I'm writing this
from work right now and i've been thinking
about him pretty much non stop since I got
here - maybe I need a more engaging job
:p
above and beyond all of that - you cant
invest so much of yourself into something
that its taking away from who you are and
any progress you feel you are making. If
he does make you feel better when he is
around, try to pinpoint what it is about
him that sparks that in you. Then try to
either find that in yourself or just learn
to appreciate it rather than "miss" it
when he's not around.
I feel like alice at times. I give very
good advice, but I very seldom follow it
:p
