I went to the doctor yesterday, but they didnt put me on medication the docter just said she will referr me to a phychiatrist... And knowing the nhs this will take forever. All I feel like doing is killing myself. I keep getting let down by people, and this just makes me feel less and less loved, like today I was supposed to go to town with my best friend, and she knows how im feeling, and she let me down to go in with mybrother/her bf. I cut my arms again last night, it doesnt hurt any more, even though the cuts are getting deeper and deeper. My parents keep going out and dont tell me, and I get really lonely when no one is here, and this is when I feel more suicidal. I rang up my mum to talk to her, we talked for about a minute and then she hung up on me. And so I rang her back... And I talked to her for a bit, but she didnt say anything and she hung up on me again and turned of her phone, so I tryed to ring my dads phone but he is ignoring it, and my brother is ignoring his too. I just feel like no one wants to talk to me, and they just ignore me all the time. Like my mum when ever I talk to her she just ignores me. I have boy friend who loves me loads and who I love with all my heart, but even knowing this I feel really suicdal. I dont know what to do any more, and I dont feel I can tell anyone without being called an attention seeker it just feels like noone cares any more, I know your all going to say that people do care, but it wont make any difference im just fed up of people letting me down all the time, its not just my family and my bestfriend, my boyfriend does it too, when he knows exactly how depressed I am, he'll change plans we had to go out with his mates. I just need some help. Please some one any one?