Is my last day of work.
It's bittersweet.....
But more sweet.

i hope it won't be too unbearable.
Especially since .I've been having
the pelvic pains & my back has been
cramping & hurting soooo bad lately.
Just gotta push through it & then I am doooone!

I am finally freeeee.
I can have the last few weeks
to just relax & get totally ready for .Gabe.
I can't believe that .I'm already almost 34wks.
Btw, I should have pictures later tonight.
My sister took her camera to school.


.Chris & I got into a huge discussion last night.
I ended up pouring my heart out & saying
things that I didn't even know I was really
feeling. I guess I had been pushing them back.
But it ended with me telling him that something
has to change or I can't be in this relationship.
He said that we don't have a choice because
we have .Gabe now. & I told him that .Gabe
comes first, & that I will do whatever it takes
to be happy so I can be the best mom for .Gabe
that I can be. I want to be with him more than
anything. For the rest of my life. But I can't
do it if .I'm just super depressed & sad all the time.
So, if he doesn't change & start treating me better..
But I know that we're gonna work really hard,
&that things are gonna be just fine.
It'll just take some work.
Ohh stressful stressful.

Anyway.

Just thought .I'd ramble for a bit.

<3