I am having a very hard time being in my 17th week and having an abortion, it was the hardest decision I have ever had to make, I had planned to have one in my 9th week, but the nhs took such a long time to get in touch with me. I have had the baby growing inside me and it has become a real part of me, the doctors discussed abortion with me as I have suffered with severe depression for the past 2 years and it has worsened since I became pregnant.

I have begun the procedure today which was very hard as I had to do it alone as my boyfriend could not get time of work, I feel empty now and I know there is no going back, my boyfriend is in the army and the army are refusing to give my boyfriend compassionate leave of a few days so that he can be with me, they basically said both the issue and me are not important enough because we are not married, which means I will have to be alone during the rest of the procedure, I am in pieces at the moment because I feel alone and need the support of my boyfriend.

Can someone offer any advice?