I'm very new here but I wanted to answer your post.
Living with depression is just not the way any of us want to live with. I have been with up and downs and was admitted in the hospital last year because of a overdose. I know we all like to give up when our meds are off and we don't see a way out. Even though I have a 12 year old girl I love with all my heart, I had forgotten about her and honestly didn't care what would happen with her. Eventually it is the pain one has to go through after an episode, knowing how much the child hurts seeing his/her mom hurting too. I have learned that when I get in that place to find help. Most likely my meds are not working right and they need to be adjusted. And no, not many people understand where we are coming from. People are sometimes just to ingnorned to see what we are going through. On the other hand they don't have to understand us, as long we understand ourselves and try to be stabile!
Hang in there, there is sunshine after the rain!

Hi there....Keep your head up! Dealing with depression/bipolar is a very difficult thing but your life can be under control. One thing I would higly suggest...Is I hate seeing someone on so many meds. Have you tried different Dr.'s if possible, personly I like to get as many thoughts about what I should be on becuse I know how strong these medications are.

On the child note I know how you feel. I was living with my girlfriend of 2 years and she had a 6 year old. This was my first relationship that involved a child. The dad was still very active in the kids life but during the week we had her, I became very attached and started to devolpe thoes natural father feelings. Well twards the end of the realtionship things got really bad and I became very unstable. It was sooo hard being home with her and the mom when my brain was just toast..I felt horrible but @ the same time I just didnt care about anyone..I was freaking out. I eventually had to make decisions becuase this was a past toxic relationship so a bit different than ur situation...But the child was still present.

Like I said above I really dont like seeing humans on so many medications for being diagnosed with a mood dissorder. I do belive there are certian meds out there that truly "help" people....But it just hurts me to see that you are taking so many.

Keep your head up and maybe re-evaluate your situation with your Dr. Etc. Best of luck and feel free to post anything!!!! ^_^