Im 18 yrs old
today I was reading about some depression illness and came across
dysthymia , and look at the simptoms and I saw my self in it but im not 100% sure
ok lets go trought the symptoms
1.Depressed mood (lasting 2 or more years)
hm iw have feeling of depression for 4 yrs now but not daily I can pass even a week or more without it but I am depressed allot but its easy for me to not think about it so it rarely affect`s my behavior it does sometimes when im really depressed but rarely
2.Feelings of hopelessness
i cant get rid of this feeling about 2 yrs now , it was really disturbing at the begining but now I can handel it , I say to myself thats just the way things are
3.Poor concentration or difficulty making decisions
totally , poor concentration for about 4 yrs now I have difficulty learning and poor motivation , but not difficulty making decisions im ok with that but in past 3-4 months im getting confused when deciding something important to me I get confused and I have a feeling that I dont know what to do
4.Low self-esteem
yes
5.Low energy
hell no im full of energy
6.Poor sleep or too much sleep
i sleep too much , about 12-13 hrs
7.Poor appetite or overeating
overating sometimes when im disturbed or angry I lget hungry
i have about 140kg now

and the thing im disturbed even more is that I have some bipolar disorder simtomes
I have strange mood changes , one moment I am sad one moment I am normal lately I have strange euphoria emotions with no reason and im getting irritated easily and having too much anger emotions over some stupid things

abit about my life
i am not quiet and sociopat
i have friends im totaly normal with that question
i always had fear of rejction (one of the simptomes)
my scool sucks I am 2 yrs behind because I didnt pass 1 and 2 grade of highschoool
i cant remember when I was happy ,
i cant be happy like other people
for instance I like partying , going to concerts , my friends like it but they are happy when they ar on a party im not I just like it ...
I cant remeber feeling really happy
my motivation is poor
my only passion is music and cars
i am really sensitive about music
i can get sad when listening emo music
but the strange thing is I listen to emo music and party music with no emotions like dark trance so I can be either sad and depressed or full of energy (bipolar disorder simptom)