Hi,
i just want to let out my thoughts really.
I told my gp about my bulimia last
october, and he reffered me to our local
ed clinic, and I had an assessment
appointment at the beggining of this
month.
At the time I was concerned by it, but now
I really regret telling anyone at all. I
am on the waiting list for treatment and
have another appointment next month. I
just had a copy of the report etc through
the post and hated reading it. I really
dont want to go back again. I hate
talking about it, I feel stupid and false,
and embarrased. And I dont want help with
it anymore, I dont think its that big a
problem, im only slightly underweight and
if anything I feel comforted by it at the
mo as I have lots of work stresses.
I also had appointment with a councillor
at uni last week but didnt go, and they
have already booked me another appointment
for this week without even asking. This
was recommended cos of long waiting list
on nhs. And I need to go back to my gp
for other reasons, but I feel too
embarrassed, so I havent gone.
Also, I live with my boyfriend and I feel
like hes watching my every move now, even
though hes known about it for years.
Sorry for going on and on, just feeling
kinda trapped and regretful!!!
Xxx
