Hi,
i just want to let out my thoughts really. I told my gp about my bulimia last october, and he reffered me to our local ed clinic, and I had an assessment appointment at the beggining of this month.
At the time I was concerned by it, but now I really regret telling anyone at all. I am on the waiting list for treatment and have another appointment next month. I just had a copy of the report etc through the post and hated reading it. I really dont want to go back again. I hate talking about it, I feel stupid and false, and embarrased. And I dont want help with it anymore, I dont think its that big a problem, im only slightly underweight and if anything I feel comforted by it at the mo as I have lots of work stresses.
I also had appointment with a councillor at uni last week but didnt go, and they have already booked me another appointment for this week without even asking. This was recommended cos of long waiting list on nhs. And I need to go back to my gp for other reasons, but I feel too embarrassed, so I havent gone.
Also, I live with my boyfriend and I feel like hes watching my every move now, even though hes known about it for years.
Sorry for going on and on, just feeling kinda trapped and regretful!!!
Xxx