I don't know what to do anymore! I am getting so frustrated and I know the people in my life are getting frustrated as well. I feel as though I haven't felt 'normal' or really good in like a year and half. There is always something that doesn't feel right with me. For a long time my chest was very tight and I thought I had cancer. I went through all the tests I could possibly get done with that and nothing was found. Then I started to get panic attacks, which of course during these moments I thought I was dying and I just felt so helpless. Then I started getting tingling and muscle spasms all over my body- I looked online and convinced myself that I had ms- I went and got the tests done for that and they came back negative. And I can't help it but everytime something is wrong with me it drives me crazy and I will convince myself without a doubt that it is this horrible disease. I just wonder if anyone else out there goes through this. I try so hard not to look things up online because I end up just freaking myself out more and getting ten times as anxious as I already am. So for a while now my left arm has really hurt. It hurts below the shoulder on what feels like the muscle. I will try to massage it or ice it to make it feel better but nothing really seems to help- (i have had ekgs last year to rule out heart problems) but somehow I still think it's my heart somehow- I also get palpatations not only in my arm but other parts of my body as well. Along with that sharp pains in random places- including my chest, legs, knee, you name it- they usually do not last long but it does get annoying. So my latest thing I looked up is that I think I have a disease where your arteries harden- don't remember the name off the top of my head- but now I think that is why my arm and leg have been hurting. I am only 21 years old and this is how my mind works- I don't want to be like this anymore- I see everyone else and they just seem so carefree! If I am like this at 21 I can't even imagine what I will be like when I get older. My mom says it's like I won't be happy until something serious is wrong with me- but I know that's not true because I just want to feel normal again!
So I guess I was wondering if anyone else out there drives themself crazy like I do going online and finding what could be wrong with them, and also if my symptoms could be part of anxiety (the random pains, palpatations, tight chest, and pain in left arm)
thanks for listening to my rant- my boyfriend and parents can only hear it so many times before I know I drive them crazy! Any help would be greatly appreciated!
its like I just wrote this forum, everything you described is how I live my life day to day. Its always I new ache or pain. I too am 21, and I have been suffering with anxiety/panic since I was 15. Its ruled my life at times. I have my ups and downs with it and I have tried medications, but I find that with counseling and a healthy lifestyle I do pretty well. Even though I find the panic attacks are under control I find that it doesn't make the anxieousness go away. Im always tense because im worried I have some kind of disease or cancer or something. From the months of october-march is the worst ever! It is only in the warm spring and summer months I find myself worry free. I stay home alot, and find it difficult to do things a normal 21 year old should do, but I convince myself there will be sometime soon hopefully I can overcome all of this.
I am a 21 yr old female, i've had panic attacks and anxiety for years now, when I got the panic attacks under control it began to manifest itself into hypochondria. I spend hours a day worrying about diseases, viruses, germs, you name it. I call myself a 'superficial hypochondriac' because I dont always worry about the most deadly diseases, but the superficial ones. My panics range from thinking I have lice because my head is slighty itchy, thinking I have pink eye, cold sores and stds are the most common fear of mine actually. I've self diagnosed myself with melanoma, multiple sclerosis, fibromylagia, brain tumor, gastro perisis, cancer of the esophagus...None of which are true - i've had about a million tests done. I became like this because I have severe symptoms that disrupt my every day life that have no apparent cause. Extreme and frequent headaches and migranes, dizzyness and fatigue, vomitting, nausea, constipation and painful bloating. These have been consistant over the past 5 years with seemingly no cause or solution, so all I do is worry !
In fact - much like you jenna2 I find the months of october/november and jan/feb to be the worst!! I hope there is something maybe that could help us, I dont know. I've taken medication for anxiety and it only made my headaches and nausea worse so I feel as though im stuck in an endless cycle.