Hey. How old are you? I am assuming you are fairly young. This isn't totally abnormal. Lot's of adolescents think they are in love with a cousin or other family member. Since I am assuming you are around 13 or so, I am just going to post this as if you were. You are just starting to discover your sexuality and that can be a scary thing. Going out and meeting girls your age can be stressful and scary. You never know what will happen. The fear of rejection is scarier then anything you've ever known. Falling for a cousin seems safer. They are family so you know they automatically love you. It seems like a logical choice but it is really that you are confused. My suggestion would be to get rid of the pictures of her and start crushing on a girl in your class that reminds you of your cousin. Find a girl with the same fashion sense and beauty. It's the next best thing to your first desire. Eventually you can hope that you will forget all about your cousin and you will start to form lasting relationships with girls other then family members. Just take things one step at a time. You already know that you have no chance with getting with your cousin. You might as well stop delaying the inevitable. Good luck. I'm sure you will grow out of it soon. Feelings change on a weekly (and sometimes daily) basis.


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Wait arent you the guy in love with a girl from your school???I am confused..??? You posted a previous posting about being totally in love with this girl from your school, who was in a long term relationship, and you feel she has no time for you?? Ok..This is weird! And your 21?? Wow.