Im feeling really down right, eberything that could go wrong has been, im issing alot of work cause my daughter doesnt want to be around her dad he always on the phone and get her to say mommy miss you and then she freaks out and start crying for me. Its heart wrenching but I need to work god I dont know what im gonna do anymore I really dont.

I hate him alot but I still care for him abit too and that is what is making it so hard to walk out, I hate how he treats me like caca and then soon as im about to leave he always tell me how sorry he is and how hell change that he loves me and the kids. He keeps telling me that my family is right im a failure, im lazy I neglect my kids and shouldnt have them or how I can do anything right. He thinks that marriage entitles him to my body whenever he so chooses even if I say no, I ask him to back off and he doesnt hes very pushy and I just cant I cant deal with it anymore.

I just want to be happy for a few days of my life, I want to be with someone who cares, I told him I met someone and I told him I kissed that person he said im gonna fight for you and the kids and then said hes gonna kick the crap out of that guy. What do I do hes not even consistant anymore and I really need some type od stability everything is changing to quick and I just want everything to slow down.

I cant deal with it anymore, I just want to let go...