Well be proud of me now, I went three days
without throwing up I guess u can thank
my older brother and the wonderful
enviroment at his place
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v00d00cita
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Posted: 02-19-07 05:29am
Yay!
I'm so glad to hea that from you, cat!!!
congratulations!
You can do it! You've just done it
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Mers
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 19 Feb 2007 Posts: 1
Whats Wrong With Me Posted: 02-19-07 18:32pm
hey so im not anorexic or bulemic im not
overly underweight or overweight i dont
binge and then purge. However, i hate
eating i love the feeling of being
starving and then there is days when i
just make myself sick just cos i can i get
so stressed i hate feeling like this
anger boils inside me i feel like cutting
myself but havent dont know what its like
just need to do something or ill go crazy
My family know they watch what i eat and
listen at the toilet i just want to scream
and scream i have been seeing a counselor
she just sits there i feel like all i want
to do is sit beside a radiator through a
blanket over me and cry and act like a
spoilt two year old
maybe a little on my waist would be good
more on my shoulders.
ok so really just venting let out wats in
my head i want t know is there a name for
what is messing with me if it isnt
anorexia or bulemia!!!!!
sorry for venting ???
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Catt101
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 May 2006 Posts: 109 Location: ,
Posted: 02-19-07 20:26pm
nah its okay it feels soooooooo great to
let everything out, i know i feel a
hundred times better afterwards, hmmm i
dont know what i would call it, but i
think i like the feeling of starving
myself too, it feels good sometimes but
other times its like i have no energy to
move or do ne thing else
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v00d00cita
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Posted: 02-22-07 04:54am
Yes, it does. I feel a lot better
when I toss all the things that are inside
me out.
And now, back to your parents' house, how
are you doing?
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Catt101
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 May 2006 Posts: 109 Location: ,
Posted: 02-22-07 16:48pm
back to my old routine, heading for the
bathroom after meals and pretty much same
thing as before, but not as happy or
comfortable...but yah i have a question, i
know when ur anorexic that ur period gets
messed up but is that the same for
bulimia?
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v00d00cita
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Posted: 02-23-07 06:10am
:S
That's not such good news, I can tell
I'm ill, don't know what I have, but it's
affecting my tummy, head,... :S I feel so
weak, throwing up and with diarrhea and
pain!!!!
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Catt101
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 May 2006 Posts: 109 Location: ,
Posted: 02-23-07 18:33pm
awww im sorry, i dont get sick often so i
dont understand when i was younger i got
sick all the time, used to remember going
to the doctors three time a month was
horrible!
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Little Sadie
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 24 Feb 2007 Posts: 14 Location: georgia
Posted: 02-24-07 17:52pm
Hey, I'm new here. I've just had a real
scare, thowing up blood. This time not
just a little.
Is this the end of the world? I know you
guys will say yes, because you want to
support my effort to stop, but I prefer
the truth
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Catt101
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 May 2006 Posts: 109 Location: ,
Posted: 02-25-07 21:06pm
its a bad sign and cant really understand
how u feel because ive never thrown up
blood, well at least not yet but maybe u
should check things out at a doctor? im
sorry that im not much help, but i just
realized it will be 5 months on the 28
since ive started, weird that im keeping
track
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Little Sadie
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 24 Feb 2007 Posts: 14 Location: georgia
Posted: 02-25-07 21:18pm
Catt101
wrote:
its a bad sign and cant
really understand how u feel because ive
never thrown up blood, well at least not
yet but maybe u should check things out at
a doctor? im sorry that im not much help,
but i just realized it will be 5 months on
the 28 since ive started, weird that im
keeping track
really? never? dang, now im worried.
there's no way im going to talk to a
doctor about this. that's kind of why im
here.
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v00d00cita
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Posted: 02-26-07 08:52am
You're doing the best thing speaking to a
doctor about it. That you told us is
probably a sign of major injuries your
body has already suffered.
Cath, hey.. What are you up do? :*
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Catt101
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 May 2006 Posts: 109 Location: ,
Posted: 02-28-07 16:55pm
hey hey well this week has had its ups it
and downs, my little brother called me fat
twice in one day, and it really got to me,
and then i dont think ive thrown up since
sunday i believe, i cant really remember,
but as everyday passes im beginning to
hate school more, i sit there thinking if
only i wasnt here, and then i think about
what people say and what they are
thinking, and ahhh justs gets to me, well
i have therapy tomorrow and i have to tell
her that i havent been doing her
assignment which was to cut everything in
half that i eat, but at least i havent
been throwing up is a postive thing i
guess for her to hear at least
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v00d00cita
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Posted: 03-03-07 07:50am
[quote="Catt101"]i dont think ive thrown
up since sunday i believe, i cant really
remember, but as everyday passes im
beginning to hate school more, i sit there
thinking if only i wasnt here, and then i
think about what people say and what they
are thinking, and ahhh justs gets to me,
well i have therapy tomorrow and i have to
tell her that i havent been doing her
assignment which was to cut everything in
half that i eat, but at least i havent
been throwing up is a postive thing i
guess for her to hear at least[/quote
hi. How are you, hun'? How was your
appointment with your therapist? I know I
havent' been around here a lot.. I've been
so busy with my final course project and
with some other project. Besides, I've
been kinda ill, so I'll be doing some
blood tests and ecographies nest week.
I've probably become intolerant to
lactose. :S
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Catt101
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 May 2006 Posts: 109 Location: ,
Posted: 03-03-07 12:18pm
therapy was okay, not to bad and not to
long didnt really talk about ne thing but
really bout what i eat and how i feel when
i throw up, just the usual stuff
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v00d00cita
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Posted: 03-07-07 09:45am
well, but you can try to change that and
to feel better..
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Catt101
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 May 2006 Posts: 109 Location: ,
Posted: 03-10-07 10:24am
well im out of house for spring break and
that should be me some time to get my
mental health up from not being at school,
god when i walked out of school on friday
i just wanted to cry, i swear i think
about what people about too much!!!
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v00d00cita
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Posted: 03-10-07 12:23pm
Yeahg... I also think we think too much
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Catt101
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 25 May 2006 Posts: 109 Location: ,
Posted: 03-14-07 13:20pm
i think i think waaayyyyy tooooo much!
prob the reason i cant fall asleep at
night ahhh im gonna be 10lb heavier by the
time i go back to my house, i just cant
make myself throw up here(i guess thats a
good thing but also bad to me) im way to
damn comfortable here, but sometimes i get
really depressed here, i feel like my
older brother is far away from me even
though he is sitting at the computer, and
that feeling to me really really sucks! i
dont understand it, i guess its just the
things he says and the tone he has with
me, he gets really annoyed at me(prob
because im too attached to him, only
sibling i cried when for when he moved
out) ahhh i need to de-attach myself some
how so i wont feel soo lonely, ne one have
ne tips?
I guess u can thank
my older brother and the wonderful
enviroment at his place
and
pain!!!!
