|i dont know , things havent been good for the past few years, like not good at all. I have thought about suicide to be honest, but I never could, its not about my family, its always like what would my friends think. Im 16 I shouldnt be dealing with this. I have amazing friends my problem is my family, my dad and his whole side of the family is out of the picture, this year my sweet 16 no one called me from that family or christmas, that sucks. I dont know, but then my mom. We used to be so close, like you have no idea, but then things have just changed, all she does is yell at me, call me fat pig becuase ive gained like 15 lbs . I used to be thin, but now im not. She tells me she hates me. Like that sucks so bad. And the reason im writing this is because she just yelled at me, and was calling me names. I just cantreally take it anymore. I have no one to talk to , im an only child and I dont want to involve my friends in these problems and when I go to my therapist my mom always goes and she makes me look like a lunatic becuase i'm the one with all the problems and everything's my fault. I just cant take it. Really. I try to ignore her.
But on top of it all , im failing like everything. I try but then my mom tells me how much of a failure I am so why should I keep trying. Theres no point in it. All my college letters she shreds because she says im not getting in. I just cant stand my life anymore.
Sorry, I just wasted everyone's time.