Joined: 26 Dec 2005 Posts: 95 Location: York, England
Depression Only At Night? Posted: 01-03-07 08:19am
My father died in august 2006. Since
september 2006, I have been experiencing
sleep problems, in which some nights I
don't sleep all night (or for only an hour
or so at night), sometimes for 2 or 3
nights in a row. (i am also dealing with
a variety of other stressful things other
than my father's death.) on the nights I
have sleep problems, I have this weird
seizure-type behaviour where I scream, and
sometimes flail my arms and legs about. I
am conscious and aware when I am doing
this, but I have no control over it. The
doctors I have been to don't seem to think
this is such a big deal.
Anyway, on the nights I can't sleep, I get
extremely depressed, to the point of
actively contemplating suicide. But the
weird thing is that during the day, after
I wake up, my mood is fine - not depressed
at all, feeling as good as one could feel
after not having slept for over 24 hours.
I was given sleeping pills but have only
taken a few because I don't think they are
really helping my sleep problems, and my
husband says I get even crazier when i'm
taking them.
After another sleepless night, I saw a
doctor who prescribed anti-depressants for
me, but said he doesn't think I am really
depressed because if I were depressed, I
would feel depressed all the time. He
thinks it is just due to lack of sleep.
But could lack of sleep really drive you
to think about killing yourself? And why
am I not sleeping in the first place?
Well, I am going to start the
anti-depressants tonight and have an
appointment to start seeing a counselor in
a couple of weeks.
