Well, my son's father whom I have been with for 4 yrs. Has decided that he wants to go out and mess around before he commits to marrying me. This has been very, very frustrating for me. I did agree to it at first. (which was very dumb) that was before he amended the agreement and said that "you have to get to know these girls first before u get in bed with them". I told him that I did not agree with that and that I wanted him to stop.

of course he hasn't. He says that he really wants to spend the rest of his life with me, but he has to get this stuff out of his system before he can actually marry me. I feel that he is really taking advantage of me. True, I know about what he is doing, and he tells me everything that he does, even asks me if he can call the chick, but I feel really hurt.

I am beyond hurt. I mean I have to deal with him waking up calling her, txting her during the day, when he comes home from work, he's calling or texting her, he calls her when I go to work at night... It goes on & on. Does it ever end??

he says that i'm the one that he sleeps with everyday, she knows about me too. He visits her in indiana every other weekend and stays all night. She sends him home with hickeys all on his body. I just don't know what to do anymore.

I absolutely, really love this guy and this is how I get treated. What do I do??? I want to leave him, but then again I don't cause he's my son's father and I have a fear of starting all over this late at my age, 33. Please help me, I feel like i'm going crazy!