I know it just not me in the whole world
.. That i've had it worse.. Im sure
every other women go through the same
thing.
I don't know if I should be embarrased or
what not.. Ya know I mean the doctor told
me it isnt cancer because it detected not
cancer.. But all they said that it
detected some hpv.. But not cancer.. But
all I could think of.. Why do I keep
getting these stuff.. Is it because of my
cmv (herpefamily virus) that I was born
with when I was a baby or what? I have no
clue. I mean im trying not to be
embarrased about it but every result I get
is something else.. I mean im happy that
I get to know whats going on with me..
Because im a health freak and stuff.. I
feel like crying right now .. But the
good thing is they had my appt on the 10
and I said I want to be seen asap and get
this thing go away.. .. I mean the
doctor wanted to do some hpv testing done
for me.. So I agreed, why not.. It
shouldn't bother me.. And now why does it
bothers me so much? She had to do it for
the inferitlity clinic.. I am trying to
get pregnant .. With my partner who is a
girl and we both want to try for another
child.. I have a son from a previous
relationship and we both love him.. ..
Would this effect on trying another one..
I mean I would wait til everything is
stable.. Health wise and stuff.. But
i think I should be ok.. But fearing in
the end.. Sometime test can say
differently with colposcopy.. I hope so.
Ah.. Wish me lucks..
Im embarrased. Scared. Want to cry ..
I dont know who else went through this and
if you did.. Feel free to post an advice
and stuff.
