I'm in my senior year of college and
getting ready to graduate in may.
Since my sophomore year, i've been feeling
gradually worse and worse every month, and
I don't know why. It seems I can't
decide who I am. I'm incredibly lonely
but then as soon as a girl starts to get
close to me, something happens and I panic
and end up pushing her away. I like the
idea of being a driven career man but then
I also know in my heart of hearts that
much later on, when i'm 60, I will regret
not stopping to "enjoy" life.
Some days are very good and I accomplish a
lot. For each good day, however, there
is an incredibly bad day in which I
sometimes end up shutting down and just
staring at the wall for three hours in
silence (this happened yesterday).
I wear a mask of sorts in public, and
especially in front of my parents. I
have a fantastic life and I cannot imagine
having a better upbringing, and therefore
I have always thought that they do not
deserve to have my problems on their
minds. So, outwardly, I maintain a
jovial facade so that people will stay off
my back. I suppose i've done this all my
life.
My chosen career path is one that
requires...Stability. When I begin my
job in a few months, there will be many
background checks, etc. Including my
medical history, and because of that I
have never gone to see a campus counselor
because I do not want my records
blemished.
I know it seems like I have systematically
shut down all possible avenues of help to
myself, but as I said, I guess i've lived
my whole life this way (kind of a misfit
as a kid) and now i'm sleeping in the bed
I made.
I can't do pills. Are there any mental
techniques or daily practices that I could
do to help boost my
self-esteem/confidence/happiness? I have
no right to be unhappy, given my life
situation, and I hate myself for being so
selfish. If I were outward looking in,
my advice to myself would be a slap in the
face and simple "shut up and get out
there."
clearly, however, that is not working for
me any more.
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doctorminton
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 16 Dec 2006 Posts: 2 Location: USA
Depression Posted: 12-16-06 14:28pm
The stress of an arduous education can
drive anyone to frazzles. Don't be
afraid of asking the student health center
for assistance. I bet they can keep it
all confidential.
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san54
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 28 Dec 2003 Posts: 227 Location: Virginia
Depression And Medication Posted: 12-16-06 15:50pm
Stress and daily living can wreck havoc on
your mind. Taking medication helps you
to cope(something to do with your
seratonin levels in your brain) talk to a
doctor and a therapist. It won't hurt.
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sandyallen
Extremely EHEALTHy
Joined: 02 Feb 2004 Posts: 4580
Mav Posted: 12-16-06 16:25pm
You are not being selfish! Look at your
carreer that you have worked long and hard
for, counseling has a lot to do with
helping others! Their is nothing wrong
with wanting to help yourself!
I am not a dr but there is a privacy act.
If you do not want to go to a regular dr
or a psychiatrist then try a homeopathic
dr or go to a health food store and tell
them it is about a friend of yours you
want to help, they might be able to
suggest something like an herb or sam-e or
whatever and like some have said here that
just the regular everyday thinfs of life
can get you down plus the holidays but
maybe you just have to break out of your
shell or break down that wall that you
have built and maybe you might just need a
little help.
Remember we are here for you even if you
just need to vent.
Also you can tell yourself and I have had
to do this a couple of times that today is
the 1st day for the rest of my life.
Their is nothing wrong in asking for help!
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ginkgo
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 04 Dec 2006 Posts: 5
Non Drug Techniques For Depression Posted: 12-17-06 04:04am
This page below has natural ways to heal
depression from a psychiatrist telling
about what your doctor may not tell you
about depression. Click on natural
healing page. Then see page rx for
happiness that can increase self-esteem
and help you you become happier.
i'm in my senior year of
college and getting ready to graduate in
may.
Since my sophomore year, i've been feeling
gradually worse and worse every month, and
I don't know why. It seems I can't
decide who I am. I'm incredibly lonely
but then as soon as a girl starts to get
close to me, something happens and I panic
and end up pushing her away. I like the
idea of being a driven career man but then
I also know in my heart of hearts that
much later on, when i'm 60, I will regret
not stopping to "enjoy" life.
Some days are very good and I accomplish a
lot. For each good day, however, there
is an incredibly bad day in which I
sometimes end up shutting down and just
staring at the wall for three hours in
silence (this happened yesterday).
I wear a mask of sorts in public, and
especially in front of my parents. I
have a fantastic life and I cannot imagine
having a better upbringing, and therefore
I have always thought that they do not
deserve to have my problems on their
minds. So, outwardly, I maintain a
jovial facade so that people will stay off
my back. I suppose i've done this all
my life.
My chosen career path is one that
requires...Stability. When I begin my
job in a few months, there will be many
background checks, etc. Including my
medical history, and because of that I
have never gone to see a campus counselor
because I do not want my records
blemished.
I know it seems like I have systematically
shut down all possible avenues of help to
myself, but as I said, I guess i've lived
my whole life this way (kind of a misfit
as a kid) and now i'm sleeping in the bed
I made.
I can't do pills. Are there any mental
techniques or daily practices that I could
do to help boost my
self-esteem/confidence/happiness? I
have no right to be unhappy, given my life
situation, and I hate myself for being so
selfish. If I were outward looking in,
my advice to myself would be a slap in the
face and simple "shut up and get out
there."
clearly, however, that is not working for
me any more.
i am not going to go into detail at the
mo, since the admin's are having a little
trouble with the site being hacked and
therefore posts are disappearing.
I posted something on cognitive therapy
and how it goes hand in hand with light
trance (hypnosis) yesterday.
You can help yourself a great deal by
reading up yourself.
You may want a therapist, or even a kick
start from a therapist, but you have the
power.
Because the site is dodgy at the mo, feel
free to pm me on the issue
