Hey...I'm 14 and i've been cutting for
about 2 years...The only reason I still do
it is it feels good and I don't know what
but I love how it feels but i'm trying to
stop now...At first it started with my
finger nails then progressed to paper
clips, then safety pins(not so safe are
they), and now pocket knifes. This is my
first year in high school and I met my
savior. He is my best friend and shall
remain nameless...About a month ago I told
him about my cutting... He hasn't treated
me different since but hates that I do
it... This year I asked him what he
wanted for christmas and he told me that
he wanted me to stop...So this year for
christmas any time I get the feeling that
I want to do it I call him... Any time of
day or night he is there for me... I also
use the rubber band trick which really
does help... Most of the time it is just
my step parents and regular parents that
make me do it...But yea my bff is my angel
for heaven....I love him more than I have
ever loved anybody and I don't know what I
would do with out him because I haven't
cut in about 3 weeks...And although I have
not done it for some time I will always be
a cutter and I know that and I am okay
with that its just the fact that I now
know that someone cares enough about me
that they want me to stop...If anybody
else wants some one to talk to please know
that I am here to pm...I've gone through
it and still am and it will be a life long
battle but I am willing to fight it and I
hope all of you are
to...Much...Love...P.S. Writing and
drawing when I get the urge helps to for
any of you artistic ones out there reading
this
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unfinishedclint
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 13 Dec 2006 Posts: 2 Location: New York City
Re: Cutting Posted: 12-13-06 21:45pm
poetry_writter
wrote:
hey...I'm 14 and i've been
cutting for about 2 years...The only
reason I still do it is it feels good and
I don't know what but I love how it feels
but i'm trying to stop now...At first it
started with my finger nails then
progressed to paper clips, then safety
pins(not so safe are they), and now pocket
knifes. This is my first year in high
school and I met my savior. He is my
best friend and shall remain
nameless...About a month ago I told him
about my cutting... He hasn't treated me
different since but hates that I do it...
This year I asked him what he wanted for
christmas and he told me that he wanted me
to stop...So this year for christmas any
time I get the feeling that I want to do
it I call him... Any time of day or
night he is there for me... I also use
the rubber band trick which really does
help... Most of the time it is just my
step parents and regular parents that make
me do it...But yea my bff is my angel for
heaven....I love him more than I have ever
loved anybody and I don't know what I
would do with out him because I haven't
cut in about 3 weeks...And although I have
not done it for some time I will always be
a cutter and I know that and I am okay
with that its just the fact that I now
know that someone cares enough about me
that they want me to stop...If anybody
else wants some one to talk to please know
that I am here to pm...I've gone through
it and still am and it will be a life long
battle but I am willing to fight it and I
hope all of you are
to...Much...Love...P.S. Writing and
drawing when I get the urge helps to for
any of you artistic ones out there reading
this
i love you baby
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Poetry_Writter
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 13 Dec 2006 Posts: 20 Location: Newtown,
Posted: 01-30-07 19:09pm
I love you to
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tannerz_rja
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 18 Jan 2007 Posts: 13
Im a Cutter Too Posted: 01-31-07 16:28pm
Yeah im a cutter too...Its a hard thing
for me to talk about with people.... break dance not
haerts
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Color of Paper
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 22 Jan 2007 Posts: 171 Location: Long Beach, Ca
Posted: 01-31-07 16:36pm
Break dance not hearts...That is just
awsome.
Well let me introduce myself on this post.
Im 24, have been though the trials with
bipolar and major depression. I've been
able to come to tearms with myself and I
am constantly working on these things.
One thing that I used to do was cut. I
would burn myself or cut myself deep
enough to where I would have to have
medical attention. I know that I cut
becuase it did feel good. I was able to
control the amount of pain by the amount
of preshure I would put on the knife.
Cutting is not good and it has ntohing 2
do with anyone eles. I now have scars
that I really dont like. I decyded to
cut open my stomach when I was 16 and that
really really hurt me for the long run.
I now have a horrid scar across my torso
that alwasy itches and its very very
irritating.
All in all cutting is not good for you
becuase its your body!!!
All we have is our body and minds..We
control what goes on there and what
happens to it. We might have chemical
imbalances or serious mood problems but
its our body! Treat it nice, be good to
it. Thats my only reason for not
cutting. Not becuase it worried
everyone aroudn me or becuase I "should"
have died a few times...But because when I
stare at myself in the mirror...Regardless
of my imperfections (we are human duu) but
im happy...I love myself and it takes time
to build that.
break dance not
haerts
