Hi my name is kyle, im 16. Latley I have been having problems... I often get sad for no reason... I have suicidal thoughts, but I have never attempted, I feel as if I have failed at everyting I have ever tried.
I have no one to talk to... Its to complicated for my friends, and my mom is the only one... But she has problems.. Like lets say I try to talk to her and all she does is tell me that I was stupid for thinking that way, or I was just completly wrong.. So I dont talk to her.. Even tho she knows something is wrong because she asks me all the time why im so gloomy.. I just tell everyting is fine, because she cant listen with out voiceing her option about things.... She is never satisfied with anything, like yesterday she got everything she had asked for, for her b-day, but that night I heard her say that no one cared enough to get her anything, and that she wasnt important to this family..She also has anger problems.. She always picks on one of us (me, my brother, step dad) to let her anger out on... And when she picks on me its usual goes down bad for me.. .Casue I bottle all my emotions up cause she yells at me for crying, like last week she says "kyle your the most selfish health questions on the planet" all because I asked her to take me to wendeys to get something to eat...
Idk what to do.. Im at my limit... Ive tried everything.. Like writting, but it dosent help anymore... I think I might need professinal help..