Joined: 10 Dec 2006 Posts: 99 Location: Toronto, Ontario,
I Feel Like a No-body Posted: 12-11-06 09:08am
No one seems to care about me. Im really
depressed. This happens to me every no
and then but after a few hours of
listening to some music (by eminem and d12
and gunit) I calm down. But its been
almost 5 days now and it just seems to get
worse then better. The other night my
went to my dad's aunt's house. She was
doing a small family get together. Which
is like an annual thing. Now it comes
time for dinner (this is an annual thing)
so I go to sit in my usual chair but its
taken up by this stranger (a friend of my
father's couisn [my fathers aunts son]) is
sitting in my seat. So the whole table is
taken up and everyone has forgotten about
me. Like even my older cousin's had
forgotten about me. Everyone had some one
to talk to. My sister had my cousin, my
brother had my little cousin, my parents
had people to talk to my older cousins
were talking to that guy. Its like I was
replaced. At the end I just went to the
living room/tv room and sat down in front
of the coffee table to eat my dinner. It
was like I wasn't there or I was the
stranger. No-one was like sociallizing
with me they were all busy with other
people. At the end my aunt saw me
sitting alone and left the dinning room
table to come and sit with me so I don't
have to eat all alone and look like a
loner. But the worst part was that every
one sitting in the kitchen table (which is
where I usually sit) like I said had
forgotten about me no-one bothered to ask
"where is john" even when I asked for a
drink (a pepesi) no one would even respond
it was like I was a ghost.
Last week I failed my drivers road test so
that was a killer it like killed me. And
also my marks arn't that great this year.
Courses like history which I should be
getting a min of 75-80 im barley getting
a 60. So like my life is really messed
up. My parents seem to care more about my
siblings than me. If anyone can help that
would be great.
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sooutofcontrol
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 10 Dec 2006 Posts: 3 Location: USA
Posted: 12-11-06 17:22pm
It sounds like it's just situational
depression, but if you keep feeling bad
for a long time you should probably go to
a therapist to see if you have a
depression disorder. Going to a therapist
could be okay even if you don't have a
mental condition though, just if you need
someone to talk to. If you have a big
family you probably will get a bit
ignored. But if you had a small family
then they would be overprotective and
paranoid, that's how my family is. Just
try to talk to your friends or write down
your feelings in a journal or a song or
something. Listening to music is good,
one of the best ways to cope I can think
of. And drivers tests always are hard to
pass. It took me 3 tries to pass my
permit test, so it's not like you're the
only one who fails those types of things.
It helped me to pretend like I didn't care
if I failed because it calmed me down.
Good luck and hope you feel better.
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greekjohn
Experienced User , Rather EHEALTHy
Joined: 10 Dec 2006 Posts: 99 Location: Toronto, Ontario,
Posted: 12-12-06 12:19pm
sooutofcontrol
wrote:
it sounds like it's just
situational depression, but if you keep
feeling bad for a long time you should
probably go to a therapist to see if you
have a depression disorder. Going to a
therapist could be okay even if you don't
have a mental condition though, just if
you need someone to talk to. If you have
a big family you probably will get a bit
ignored. But if you had a small family
then they would be overprotective and
paranoid, that's how my family is. Just
try to talk to your friends or write down
your feelings in a journal or a song or
something. Listening to music is good,
one of the best ways to cope I can think
of. And drivers tests always are hard to
pass. It took me 3 tries to pass my
permit test, so it's not like you're the
only one who fails those types of things.
It helped me to pretend like I didn't
care if I failed because it calmed me
down. Good luck and hope you feel
better.
i've kinda seen a therapist, but he's not
really a therapist. He's just my friend
who is really into physicatry and is
planning to become a therapist but that
doesn't seem to work. Maybe I should see
a licenced therapist?
My family isa moderate size not too small
but not too big. At the get together we
at the most were 20 people maybe 30. But
thats how many of us it usually is an
no-one has ever ignored me. Music was
the best thing for me to cope with stress,
problems or even when I was just angry.
However, it doesn't help me this time. I
usually listen to "'till the music stops"
by d-12 then some more music by d-12,
eminem, 50 cent, Dr.Dre and g-unit and the
songs they have usually help me get over
whatever I am feeling but it doesnt help
right now. Heres a the second verse of
"forgot about dre" by Dr.Dre featuring
eminem
so what do
you say to somebody you hate
or anybody tryna bring trouble your way
wanna resolve things in a bloodier
way
just study your tape of nwa.
One day I was walkin by
wit a walkmen on
when I caught a guy givin me an awkward
eye
and
strangled him off in the parkin lot wit
his karl kani
i don't give a medical question if it's
dark or not
i'm harder than me tryna park a dodge
but i'm drunk as medical question
right next to a humungous truck in a two
car garage
hoppin out wit two broken legs tryna walk
it off
medical
question you too health forum call the
cops
i'ma kill you and them loud ass
muthafuckin barkin dogs
and when the cops came through
me and dre stood next to a burnt down
house
wit a can full of gas and a hand full of
matches
and still weren't found out
from here on out it's the chronic 2
startin today and tomorrows the new
and i'm
still loco enough
to choke you to death wit a charleston
chew
[record scratch]
slim shady hotter then a set of twin
babies
in a mercedes benz wit the windows up
and the temp goes up to the mid 80's
callin men ladies
sorry doc but I been crazy
there is no way that you can save me
it's ok go with him hailey
the lines highlighted in bold is what I
feel like doing. Before just listening
to it would make me feel better, but right
now nothing.
I feel like no one cares about me. My mom
has told me to go to hell countless times
and she never says she's proud of me or she
loves me. So I know she probably
doesnt give a caca about me(which she says
she does). My dad has told me that i'm
going to fail in life. So I have no
support from him. My granparents (my
moms parents) don't give a caca about me
last time I was really sick in bed they
waited 4 days when I went over to their
house to ask me how I was feeling. They
only care about my cousins, they spend
like 100 dollars @ christmas on them on
full priced items and when it comes to me
they go to the clearance rack and spend 50
dollars on me and I am older. When ever I
ask my dad for help with homework he just
sits and watches the game on tv and tells
me "what does the book say" and when I
tell him it doesnt say in regards to what
I am asking him he comes down on me look
again or why didnt you ask your teacher.
However when my brother does ask him he
gives him his full attenion. So basically
I feel like a no-body since my siblings
get all the attention and I get none. The
only attention I get is from my computer
or from myself. But my computer cannot
give me the attetnion that I need. My
friends try to give me as much attetnion
as possible but they cannot be around me
24-7 to give me attention.
