I know u guys get this alot. Its a question ive been struggling with..Sometimes it seems like ive been fooling myself. Im 17 and I think im losing my mind sometimes. I worry about other peoples opinions of me alot.. I think about it too much. At times...I think im crazy. I start thinking horrible thoughts about myself. So much that it hurts literally to look at myself. I get frustrated about my own thoughts. I want to cry when I think about writing them down because it seems like their so stupid. Its like I dont even have any thoughts..They seem so clouded. I feel like im not being myself. I hate who I was in the past. So I really dont have anything to look back on. Sometimes I wish I could disapear..If it wasnt for my family....I would. I hate me..
I used to feel like I had split personalities..I used to read stuff I used to had written and it dint even seem like myself....
I hate the way I think...
I dont know how to explain it...
I go through so many mood swings..
I have trouble talking to people...Its like I cant just talk...So I just sit there in the back ground
my self esteem so low right now....Ive been pretending for awile that everythings okay but its so not. I hate myself...I want to better myself but it seems so hopless...I dont like who I am...If I know that person at all...Its like I act different around different people and I hate it...I hate talking to people I dont know...I cant hol conversations at alll....Am I just trippin..Am I normal for feelinf these feelings...Is it a part of being a teenager...I hope so....But I doubt it..No one should feel the way I feel about themselves.'
i feel so ugly on the inside...Even though I look half decent.
Someone tell me something to help me....