Hey everyone.I havent been on here in months.See, I am recovering from anorexia and bulimia for about a year now.I went into the hospital(sheppard pratt) december 2, 2005.It was hell, let me tell you.But I am in a much better place then I was.But recently I have been get anxiety when I eat certain foods and jsut when I eat.I am "checking" myself a lot more, like my stomach.I have chewed snacky foods and spit them out just to get the taste.And its like somtimes I eat because im hungry, but then there are the times where im thinking how bad I want to be skinny again and so I just dont eat what I want.And nobody knows but I also have been taking stackers after I eat.It makes me feel so much more comfortable to eat,is that bad?I know I could be doing much worse but its like im falling back.I like that I am social again and that im living my life, but then there is the times where I want my ed back again and would die jsut to be skinny like I was.I try to convince myself that my weight is a "normal"(hate that) weight but then other times its jsut not good enough.I feel like I ahev this huge battle inside my head.If anyone can relate or has any advice please write.Thanks