I feel really rotten and broken hearted today, so I thought i’d share my story with everyone. It will probably get too long, but i’m pretty depressed right now. I dated a guy named brandon for almost four years and we lived together for three and a half. It wasn’t the best relationship in the world, but it wasn’t the worst. We lived in an apartment in greenville and last summer we met some neighbors, two guys, who lived downstairs and started hanging out with them every day. One of the guys was about a year younger then me and we became friends pretty quickly although he always looked at me with eyes brandon didn’t like. Even though johnny had a girlfriend at the time. Last september, the neighbors moved and my guy friend, johnny moved back in with his parents and I didn’t see him all last winter.
Brandon and I worked at the same place and decided that we hated our jobs and wanted to quit in april. We thought we’d be able to find jobs before rent time came. We weren’t able to by the beginning of may but were able to pay that rent. Johnny moved back into greenville and may and he, brandon and I hung out a few times in april. Early in may, brandon and his friend went up north to brandon’s parents’ cabin for the night against my wishes. I was stuck hanging out with brandon’s friend’s girlfriend suzy, who I thought was pretty annoying. So I called up johnny and we all hung out at my apartment. Johnny told me that he recently had broken up with the girl whom he’d been dating on and off for three years. Johnny wanted us to see his new apartment so we went over there. What happened was that we dumped suzy off at her house and johnny and I went back to his house to have sex. I was drunk, mind you. After johnny and I were done, so to speak, I checked my cell phone and there was a message from brandon saying that he hoped what happened didn’t really happen. Suzy called brandon and his friend and told them that I had slept with johnny. Suzy had no actual proof and even though I felt extremely terrible lying to brandon I made up an excuse.
Brandon and I couldn’t find jobs so we decided to move to his parents’ house sixty miles away in merrill. We moved all of our things up to merrill and needed to go back to greenville to finish fixing up the apartment for a weekend. That weekend I ended up hanging out with johnny and had sex with him again. I insisted that I didn’t want to be in a relationship with him, I told him I was dating brandon, but he insisted that he wanted me. So throughout the entire summer in merrill, I snuck down to greenville almost every weekend to visit johnny and our affair lasted two months. One day I realized that my bills were horribly backed-up, I was working part time at a low-paying job in merrill and I needed to move back to greenville to find a higher paying job.
I ended up breaking brandon’s heart; I ran away back to greenville in the middle of the night with the help of my friends. I moved back in with my parents and got a decent-paying job. I started dating johnny in august; brandon never found out about our affair although he suspected it from time to time. My relationship with johnny went pretty bad. We fought a lot and he really nit-picked me. He couldn’t get over his ex-girlfriend even though he just “had to have me”. I found out he wasn’t all that I imagined him to be and today we finally broke up. Actually I think he broke up with me, i’m not sure, but he sure broke my heart. I essentially ran away from a four year relationship to be with this guy and he pretty much treated me like I wasn’t important. Johnny still wants to be friends because he insists we make better friends then lovers, but I don’t know if I want to have anything to do with him anymore. I wouldn’t be able to stand hanging out with him if he’s with another girl because i’m sure he’ll replace me pretty quickly. Am I wrong to not want to have anything to do with him anymore; should I still be friends with him? I still talk to brandon and i’m planning on visiting him soon but I feel that I really was made a fool of by johnny. What do you think?