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Shabba_Tastic
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Hi, i'm new. Sorry I haven't propably introduced myself yet. I guess I just really need some support right now.
Okay so a bit of back ground info: for the past few months i've been having some issues with food. I've been restricting my calories etc and eating anything these days has become such a struggle. It's strange, I used to enjoy eating, I never thought twice about it. But now, after I eat anything (no matter how small or large), I get so depressed and angry with myself. I know i'm developing a problem but I haven't been diagnosed with an eating disorder. I do, however, have most of the signs of anorexia apart from the fact that i'm still in the healthy weight catogery. I see a counsellor and I have an appointment to see a dietician on monday - which will be our first meeting.
Okay so the reason for this post? I just need to... I don't know. I need some reassurance I guess. I feel so depressed and angry wth myself right now. I've just eaten so much pasta. I've starved myself all day and now, tonight, I had some pasta... But I couldn't stop and now I feel like i've eaten so much. There was a voice in my head, yelling at me to stop. "stop eating you fat pig!" but I didn't. Now I hate myself. I feel like i've failed. That's never happened to me before. Other times I was able to stop eating, move away from the food, I had control. But tonight has scared me, I felt so out of control.
A few months ago I went through a phase of purging. But I stopped doing that. I'm not sure why to be honest. I just stopped and I haven't tried to make myself sick for at least 3 months... Until tonight. I tried, I admitt that yes I did try to make myself sick tonight. But nothing would come up. A good thing I guess? I don't know anymore.
I just feel so guilty right now. I'm so fed up of feeling like this. I wish I could just... Ugh I don't know. I would say "i wish I could just eat normally" but i've become to realise that it's not about food and weight... It's about me, my life, more underlying issues.
Sorry if i've ranted on a bit. I'm not sure what this post is for. I'm not even sure if i'm expecting anyone to reply. As you can gather my head is pretty mixed up right now. I'm sorry if this is making no sense, i'm sorry if i'm wasting your time. But hey, thanks for reading and thanks for replying if you do
Okay so a bit of back ground info: for the past few months i've been having some issues with food. I've been restricting my calories etc and eating anything these days has become such a struggle. It's strange, I used to enjoy eating, I never thought twice about it. But now, after I eat anything (no matter how small or large), I get so depressed and angry with myself. I know i'm developing a problem but I haven't been diagnosed with an eating disorder. I do, however, have most of the signs of anorexia apart from the fact that i'm still in the healthy weight catogery. I see a counsellor and I have an appointment to see a dietician on monday - which will be our first meeting.
Okay so the reason for this post? I just need to... I don't know. I need some reassurance I guess. I feel so depressed and angry wth myself right now. I've just eaten so much pasta. I've starved myself all day and now, tonight, I had some pasta... But I couldn't stop and now I feel like i've eaten so much. There was a voice in my head, yelling at me to stop. "stop eating you fat pig!" but I didn't. Now I hate myself. I feel like i've failed. That's never happened to me before. Other times I was able to stop eating, move away from the food, I had control. But tonight has scared me, I felt so out of control.
A few months ago I went through a phase of purging. But I stopped doing that. I'm not sure why to be honest. I just stopped and I haven't tried to make myself sick for at least 3 months... Until tonight. I tried, I admitt that yes I did try to make myself sick tonight. But nothing would come up. A good thing I guess? I don't know anymore.
I just feel so guilty right now. I'm so fed up of feeling like this. I wish I could just... Ugh I don't know. I would say "i wish I could just eat normally" but i've become to realise that it's not about food and weight... It's about me, my life, more underlying issues.
Sorry if i've ranted on a bit. I'm not sure what this post is for. I'm not even sure if i'm expecting anyone to reply. As you can gather my head is pretty mixed up right now. I'm sorry if this is making no sense, i'm sorry if i'm wasting your time. But hey, thanks for reading and thanks for replying if you do
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