What happens when your blood runs clear and the tears wont stop raining? I can feel myself slowly fading. Nothing seems to matter and I have no ambition to do anything with the rest of my life. I used to want to be someone important, now all I want is to be in the obituaries. I know I probably have depression, and I have been seeing a shrink for some time now, but I feel as if, even if I were to the point of putting that gun to my head, I wouldn't have the strength to call anyone for help. Breathing is difficult, waking: even more so. I am nothing anymore. What happened to me?
Dear wilted angel. Please don't give up. God loves you. He is right there beside you. All you have to do is ask him. I will put you in my prayers. Please do not lose hope. There is light at the end of your dark tunnel. Remember you are not alone, just ask.
I am new here . As I look around at how much everyone here cares and has advise or experiance to share I can only tell you this, the more I look I realize that if for no other reson . Hang in there, every day has something new and more to offer.. One day it will be the answer.
Aww hun look after yourself!! Ive been in that state of mind before... You have to concentrate on getting yourself through each day, one at a time... Try and focus your attention on something posative... I know this sounds weird and it was prolly a bit irrational and spontaneous (but thats how I get when im depressed) I went out and got a kitten from the rspca and rescued him from a bad life... It actually helped me alot,
im not telling u to go and buy yourself a kitty or anything but just try and focus on something good in your life and try to distract yourself as much as possible... Make sure you keep things u can harm yourself with away as well...
You say you've been seeing a shrink for some time - if that is more than say 4-5 months & you still feel like this then i'd say you need to see someone else as the current shrink isn't helping!!!!
Do you have any family or close friends you can talk to?? Have you asked (dr or shrink)about any support groups that might help you?What about hobbies, do you have any - if yes get involved in them to give you something you enjoy to do if no then find a hobby or two!!