This is an older post and I dont know if you are still with us Jessica-CF20..I just saw this post and realize how important it is that we stop and say hi even if we don't have an answer..Death is a hard one for us all I think but I beleive if you are given a gift in knowing what time you have left upon this earth then use it wisely..Take care of lose ends and give to those you want to give..Write letters to those you want to wish well or say good bye to..Live each day to the fullest and with a loving heart and a smile..Yes, I think knowing is a gift as few of us are given a time frame and most of us leave this earth abruptly never saying good by..Give to those all your heart that you will continue to shine even after your last heart beat..Give people the ok to move on with their lives, to love and marry again..You have a wonderful gift in your hands and I hope it was a gift that was spent well for you..Be sure to dance one last time and walk upon the ocean shore and if you have the chance make love with the water leaping around you..