Q: Checking In
asked by:
CrombieChic16
on January 31st, 2004
Active User, very eHealthy
Hey girls!
Just wanted to check in and see how everyone and their babies were doing...I'm now 12 weeks and 3 days! Time has gone by pretty fast...But not fast enough! I want this peanut outta me and in my arms already! It's been a rough few days and i'm trying hard to keep it together...I've been so emotional I just can't seem to keep my moods under control...I'm happy one minute and irritated out of my mind the next...Every little thing has got my skin crawling...I feel more like i'm bipolar rather than pregnant! Things with tom have been rocky and it's got me so upset...He hasn't been acting any differently than before, but for some reason the things he does is getting to me more...Like last night, he decided to go up to his school and hang out and party with his frat brothers...That was fine with me because he needs time away from this with his buddies as do i...He called me and woke me up at 2 in the morning drunk...I could barely hear him because it was so loud in the background..I was happy to hear from him though but after about 2 minutes he told me he'd call me right back....But never did....He's never done that before...So of course I got worried and thought about every possibly scenario that could have been going on then, and it left me with a knot in my stomach...I didn't get to sleep until 4 and woke up at 11 this morning without a phone call from him yet....I've been hysterical all day and can't seem to get a grip here...He finally called me about an hour ago to tell me he was home...The whole time I just wanted to cry to him and tell him how I was feeling, but I dont want him thinking im a basketcase! Once again after a couple minutes he told me he was gonna go and watch the flyers game on tv and to call him in alittle bit....I hung up and cried my eyes out! Girls! Help me! I don't know what to do....I feel like this pregnancy is going to be a whole lot harder than I thought it would...Everything was so smooth up until now...My emotions are getting the best of me, and I need some help on how to stay calm and rational...I was with some of my friends last night and almost ended up going to the er because I had the worst anxiety attack I have ever experienced....I felt like my air was being cut off...I was so scared, and ever since then i've just felt like crying...Please someone tell me this is normall! I feel like i'm going crazy....Everything just feels so overwhelming and impossible...I mean can I realy hold it together for another 27 weeks?!? Can I be a mother to a baby at 17? I don't know if i'm strong enough...Things are becoming more and more real and it's becoming harder to accept...I love my baby so much already, but i'm scared...I'm scared of not being a good mommy and not giving my child the best life they deserve...Ugh i'm sorry for venting, but I had to let it out...I hope you girls are having much better days than me!

vanessa
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