Raaaaaaaaahhhggghhh!!!!!

I am so frustrated with my family!

As you guys know, my dad won $15,000 in the lottery a few months ago, well, after taxes, we only got $11,000 of it, &my mom took $5,000 of it to put away for when my sisters go to .France for 2 weeks next year. &.The rest of it, my dad paid off all our bills- that's fine, .I understand that. But $5,000 that my mom took!? I think that's ridiculous.

Anyway.

So, the money we won is gone.

My sister, .Kayla, is 17, &she &.I are currently sharing my car. A '97 .Plymouth .Neon... It's not a bad car. I really like my car. But she drives it more than .I do. A lot more than .I do. It's come to me having to ask her if .I can use it or she she needs it. Seems a little backwards. Anyway, she's been badgering my dad to get her a car of her own- fine, not a big deal. I want her to have her own car, .I would really enjoy my own car. &.She deserves her own, also.

But here's the thing. My car is a 2 door, &.It's extremely small. I honestly don't see how a carseat is going to fit in the back. I don't think it will, &if it did, it would just seem like it was really unsafe to me, ya know? I wouldn't be comfortable having him back there. Chris also has a two door car, but it's an explorer &it's a lot bigger. But, it's a piece.

Well, .I think that maybe at least one of us should have a decent, 4 door car. Like, a small, used suv. &.Chris &.I said it should be me, since .I'll be the one driving with him most of the time, since .Chris works so much.

Well, here's where the problem is. My dad said if my mom hadn't of taken the $5,000 for .France, he would've been able to swing getting both .Kayla &me cars.. &giving my old one to my other sister .Becky, who is gonna be 16 in .February.. But that can't happen, now. &.I don't have *any* credit whatsoever, so .I can't take out any type of loan, &my parents won't cosign for me.

I suggested that maybe instead of .Kayla getting a car, since she already basically owns mine anyway, why not just give it to her, &say, ok here, it's yours &only yours.. &.Get me a used 4 door? But of course .Kayla threw a fit at that idea, saying it's not fair. I understand that she's 17 &wants a car of her own &whatever. But .I think the safety of me &my son is a little more important than her vanity.. When .I was her age, .I just wanted a car, .I didn't care what it looked like or if it was someone else's before me.. I wanted anything .I could get. It just seems like she's being really selfish. &.My parents don't know how to say no to her or my other sister, so .I'm just kind of screwed.

I mean, .I know .I got myself pregnant &that it's an "inconvienance" to my family or whatever.. But .I could use a little help, ya know? Chris can only do so much, &.I have no idea what .I'm doing, &it just seems like even though everyone is excited &being really supportive, they aren't offering any help..

I don't know.

Maybe .I'm being a big baby, but it just seems a little twisted &unfair to me. I'm soo sorry this is so long &stupid! I'm just so frustrated with everyone.