Hey all, let me tell you my story. I'm an 18 year old male from england who started chatting to a girl from new york online a bit ago, and over time feelings started to develop and I planned on going over there to visit. As time went on my happyness turned into pain, pain from the distance, I guess I came to the realisation of how near impossible this actually would be. I went into a mad state of depression and even had to see a doctor about it, so we stopped talking for a few days. The pain calmed down a bit, but I didnt want to make a mistake against her and break her heart so I told her I couldnt stay commited even though deep down inside I didnt want anyone else. She accepted, her feelings for me didnt change, she still kept on saying that I was the only one for her and she wasnt interested in other guys, and it stayed like that for a while until the other night... I found out she is now in a relationship with someone else, this has left me heartbroken because I still had strong feelings for her and never wanted what we had to die... Even though it was so painful. I feel as if I brought it up on myself for being selfish for her love. Everything we could of had is now all shattered and I hate this feeling, I cant believe she told me she wanted me and only me and now this happens. What if she was the one.