I don't know why I have used that title, after all I know there are people out there with the same condition as me, the only thing is that I know that I am getting worse, and I have not had the condition long enough to even be diagnosed. But I know, I studied it for two years, my psychology research was carried out on it. Thats probably why I am so good at doing it, I found out lots of information as to how they manage to starve themselves or make themselves throw up. Over the last six weeks I have dropped three dress sizes and have developed bulimia/anorexia. I do not eat for four days or so in a row and then eat something stupid like twenty sausages in five minutes I will then make myself throw up and then go out and get completely hammered on vodka shots. It all started when I got to uni and was surrounded by people half my size. I am overweight so I can afford to go a few days without food, but it is the fact that gradually more and more my life is being consumed by food, I was meant to be doing research and in the last week I have visited this sight about sixty times, today I joined and wrote my first entry. Anyway, just wondered if there was anyone who I could talk to about this. The strangest thing is that even though I know that I am getting worse I don't want to stop. Does anyone know what I mean when I say that I love the feeling that I get after I have binged and purged??