So, there has been only one girl I have ever loved. She was my girl...Many years back. I was in a tough part of my life, and couldn't handle the relationship (we both had our problems) so I broke it off. We coincidentally met again about 1.5 years later and went out a couple of times. But truth be told, it didn't feel "right".

So now, it's 2:30am on november the 11th. I open up my email and who has emailed me?...She has. I see her email and instantly my heart jumps. Is it joy? Is it fear?...So similair when you think about it. She does the usualy thing about seeing if I hate her and asking how i've been doing. She tells me a bit about her life...The usual small-talk stuff.

Why after another year or more has she emailed me? I responded and was honest but sincere. I told her basically I would love her to be in my life, but I couldn't handle her games another time...I don't want my heart broken twice.

Maybe she does feel something. Maybe just like me, she has been thinking of me and just wants to say "hello"...And go from there. I honestly don't know. All I do know is that she is the only girl i've ever loved. I couldn't handle her coming into my life and leaving it again.